Dear Luend 

First if all Hello 

Its such a worrying time waiting for results it can drive you  crazy if you let it.

Im not going to tell you not to worry as i I know you will, as i have felt the same. All i can say is dont let this consume your every thought, as you may get good news .

Try to take some time for you, relax yourself in a warm bobble bath , listen to music you enjoy, read a book or watch a movie do try to take your mind off of it all.Or just go for a walk and if you love nature like i do, just listning to.the birds sing outside is really therapeutic.. 

Always here if you feel the need to chat. Xx

Thanks Jassoscared.

I m just hoping that they don't say it has gone elsewhere as ot is pretty obvious what it is. I've tried going for bike rides, watching tv doing housework etc, its just so annoying that it sits at the back of my mind still niggling. Waiting for the plan is the worst! I know they have to wait that long for the biopsy results etc, just feels like a lifetime! Not sure how I am getting through each day at the mo!

Just want thie week to go quick.  Dreading getting results but just want to know what the next plan is

Thanks for replying

Lu x

Luend

I know im the same if im really honest, im.good at giving advice but need to imply  it to myself to.

Im sitting on my sofa  and feeling  scared and sorry for myself  dreading whats to come  and i can feel.the tears welling up in my eyes.

I had a right side  bowels ressection apoendix removed and a  small part of my intestines removed in 2015 .i had ulcerative  colitis yrs ago when i was  aged 18, and have always had problems with my bowels too.

I kept getting polyos in the bowels, and in 2015 they found a pre cancerous flat sessile polyp. It wasnt cancer but as it was high grade dysplasia and was told it  could turn  into cancer  i was advised to hsve the operation as a precautionary measure. 

That in itself was not nice It caused a hernia where the bowel came through my stomach  wall from.the incision of my bowel resection. 

So again i had to be operated on  to repair it, i has mesh insertrd inside of my stomach to secure the stomach wall.That had left my stomach to be not a pretty sight, i have 2 lumps caused by scar tissue either  side of  my stomach, where my belly button used to be, they cut right through it.

I then had a fall and broke both my wrists  .

Then i go and fall ill again  end up in hospital  and was told i had gallstones and my  gallbladder would have to be removed.

Then while waiting  at home i called them.to let  the hospital  knowi  had mesh inside of my stomach and would that be a problem. They had not read through my notes and were not aware.So they  said " they could not do the operation and id need to see a specialist surgeon." So back on the waiting list i went.

It took 6mths before i got  an appointment.And i was put on the waiting  list, after another 6mths passed i had not had any pains or symotoms , so i decided not to go ahead as i just couldn't face it.

And now this breast cancer , which i know i have to face .

So believe  me i really do understand im ok some  hrs in the day, and then it hits me. 

Talking in here really  does help me , just to get it all of........i don't  even like typing what  i was gonna say...off my chest...how sad is that

Tomorrow is another day and hopefuly it will be better than  today for us both. 

I hope you get a good nights sleep, thats something i need as not sleeping well.

Take care speak soon.xxxx

Jusoscared, you've been through such a lot! Your struggles and spirit are admirable.  You say it helps you to get things out by writing here, but it also helps people like me, reading your story. I am just becoming  aware of the whole waiting issue and the unbelievable level of anxiety linked to it. 
 

My gp  made the so-called emergency 2 wks referal for me for Ct scans of chest, Abdomen and pelvis. this was over 3  weeks ago. Since then my symptoms have worsened  and I have new ones. Tomorrow I'll be going in for my scans and I am really worried and bracing myself for the wait for the results from the scans. Everyday, some time, every passing minute is a struggle. Do you have an idea how long people are likely to wait for scan results? 
 

thanks again for your writing & I do wonder what are you facing up  next  in your journey