Hi everybody,

I feel like I am going crazy.

During the last month on two occasions after having intercourse, upon wiping I have had a tiny tinge of pink discharge, and what feels like irritation to my cervix. Straight after the first time I called the doctor, who didn't seem at all concerened. I was meant to be on my period 8 days after but I ended up coming on after just 4. 

The second time was around the time I was ovulating. Again I called my GP (and a private doctor), neither of them were concerned. The irritation started to turn into a bit of pelvic pain, and I also noticed this pink discharge after having a bowel movement. On Monday I called my GP again and begged to be allowed to come in for an examination. 

I went into the GP surgery, very anxious, and she gave me an examination, just using her fingers, not a speculum. She told me I was 'inflammed' (at this point I thought she meant my cervix) and that she diagnosed thrush and gave me a cream to use. 

The next day I started to get cramps and bleeding (a moderate amount, like a period), and although the cramps have eased the bleeding hasn't. I wasn't due for my period for another 5 days at this point. I called the GP surgery back, and they said they didn't know why I was bleeding, they didn't think it was relating to the examination. Turns out I misunderstood what the GP had said. As she didn't use a speculum she didn't actually see my cervix, she could only see my vaginal area and concluded that was inflammed. They still didn't seem that concerned, they couldn't tell me what the bleeding related to so I begged them for a referral.

Her reasoning for not doing a proper cervical check was that at the time of the appointment I hadn't had any proper bleeding, and as my last smear came back as normal only 17 months ago she didn't think it was necessary. Now I am still bleeding, the same as a period. I have now been referred for a colposcopy, a 2 week urgent appointment. I have private healthcare through my work and currently have one booked for the 6th May, although they are going to try and bring it forward to next week if possible.

I am so so scared. I know it's unlikely to be cervical cancer, because my smear was so recent, and for me to be experiencing these types of symptoms it would be quite advanced, by that doesn't mean it's impossible does it?

Now I'm questioning whether my last smear was done properly?

I have a 22 month old beautiful little boy, and every time I look at him I burst into tears. I'm terrified I'm going to leave him without a mummy. 

This feels like a horrible dream that I just can't wake up from. Please somebody help me.