Hi, 

I'm 18 years old and I've been having the symptoms of colorectal cancer for about 9 months. Yes, I've been to my GP, and after months of fighting with them that it's not IBS, I finally managed to get a colonoscopy scheduled for March 23rd. This was canceled due to the pandemic that's going on, and it could be months before I can get another appointment.

I suppose I'm here to say that I'm scared. I don't know for sure that it's cancer, but I have most of the symptoms, and my general health and fitness have greatly declined over the past 2 years. My crohns disease test came back normal, and that was really my last hope at not having cancer. When I spoke to the doctor at the hospital over the phone about my symptoms, he seemed concerned, and didn't seem to believe me because of my age. I have generalised anxiety disorder, and suffer with incredible paranoia on a daily basis. Having to wait so long for closure is killing me, I'm terrified, I routinely go through phases of being convinced it can't be cancer, I'm only 18 how could it be cancer, to being convinced that it is. I don't know what I expect from posting this, or why I'm here really. I think I just need some kindness.