Scared and in tears after doctors phone call :'(

Hi everyone I hope you are all safe and well.

Im so sorry for drastic title but I have literally shut myself away in bedroom and left my partner and 4 Yr old girl downstairs as I am in floods of tears. I've had a small lump on my forearm for about 9 months only recently went to the doctors because it felt bigger and harder and when I leant on it... It hurt. 

I was hoping a cyst. 

 

The doctor saw it and didn't really know what it was so sent me for untrasound. I had that last Friday. 

At the ultrasound she said it didn't look too suspicious and also done a blood vessel (I'm not sure if that's right) scan and said it had no blood vessels or flow or something of that sort. 

 

After she said that the weekend was fine and wasn't worried because I thought if bad... Surely have blood flow. 

 

The doctor just called me and said that she wants it biopsies... I said (because I wanted reassurance again) about the blood vessel thing and she said yes it didn't have but usually with BENIGN lumps the borders are clear and mine WASN'T so it's confusing for her. And she said needs it biopsied so if it's bad we need it out. 

 

I've gone into complete meltdown. I also work for NHS so my job is stressful right now and looking after my 4 year old as schools have closed... I dunno how to cope. I guess if anyone has any experience with lumps or whether because the border isn't clear? I'm not sure. I just feel in a mess right now. 

 

So sorry. 

 Xxx

  • Hi Kay

    No experience with a lump but I was urgently referred to dermatology for something that looked typically like a melanoma - no clear borders (which was the most concerning for the GP...she even dropped in the dreaded C word).  
     

    Anyway, turned out to be nothing. Completely benign. Try and relax, it's more likely to be something benign. My skin issue didn't have clear borders and it was harmless xx 

  • Thank you so so much for your reply. So sweet. I've been thinking about it allday. 

    I think it's because on the ultrasound images it had no borders... Not just from visual inspection.... Did you have an ultrasound on yours? 

     

    The worry takes over doesn't it. Thank you so much for replying to me xxx

  • Hi Kay

    No....they put a device on it to extremely magnify it (I forget what it was called) but it does not have regular borders to this day. 
     

    Everything you have heard so far supports that it's more likely nothing to worry about xx 

    Do you know when your biopsy will be? Xx

  • Hi, bless your heart.

    Thank you for your reply.

    Welll they called me again.... And aparently the doctor spoke to a radiologist at the hospital and I'm not sure if he saw the images of my ultrasound or not.... But the doctor said he said that because of the history and rate of growth they are limiting biopsy etc aswell because of coronavirus so I need an Mri before biopsy as they don't wanna be sticking a needle into something they don't know what it is.... :( but that could be in like 3 months.....

     

    My head will definately be in an unhealthy place if I have to wait 3 months as it doesn't necessarily mean that because its growing slowly its not anything bad..... 

     

    So I'm wondering if to pay for a private mri and biopsy maybe? But I don't know if the results are bad if I would still get treatment on the NHS? And it's probably really expensive just feel at my wits end and I have a 4 year old to try and keep happy through all this. Xxx

  • Hi Kay,

    Whatever happened to your lump, was everything OK? Hope you are well my fellow NHS colleague