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This is probably completely over sharing but I'm so terrified and with all the corona virus stuff going on I really don't want to further worry anyone close to me with my issues! 
 

for the last few weeks I had intermittent rectal bleeding no pain or any other symptom. Eventually attend my doctor who examined me and felt my tummy agreed it was probably a nasty pile, prescribed cream and sent me on my way. Three days later the pain in that area was almost unbearable at times and the bleeding was much worse to the point it would be running down my legs when I was standing up and the majority of the bleeding was big dark red clots! I called again to the doctor and was seen today. 
 

At first she wanted to check the same area but as I was waiting she suddenly decided that she wanted to check my cervix and vaginal area! I was fine with that and I was in the room for 30/40 mins whilst she checked both areas and suggested a smear test. She felt my tummy which she had done the first visit the week previous and I nearly jumped off the bed this time when she came to the area around my liver! 
 

Once it was all over she wanted a full blood work done. She has gone on to say the smear will most likely come back with no result as she couldn't get in to swab due to a large abnormal mass! There was also something inside the back passage as well and she has no idea what either are. 
 

I don't know what to think and right now I think I'm in a bit of shock and not knowing how long the referral will take to gynaecology or the rectal doctor I feel like I'm left in a little bit of a worrying situation. The only thing I can go on is in one weeks time all the blood work will be back and I can contact them to ask if there's anything abnormal in that. I did ask if this could be something sinister and she just couldn't answer me but asked if I was a smoker so my mind has just automatically hit me with "this could be cancer." 
 

I completely understand everything takes time and it is just a waiting game but has anyone had anything similar and it's been nothing to worry about? I'm avoiding googling at all costs, I don't want to work myself up and trick myself into believing that I do have something as awful as cancer when it could be something completely different but I actually feel quite unwell, I'm weak and very pale with dark circles around my eyes to the point friends and family are now asking if I'm okay and I'm assuming it's the blood loss but I just don't know what to do or what to think! :cry:

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    So sorry your having to go through this especially with all the added worry of coronavirus. I can understand your worry and know how hard it is waiting for appointments etc. I would focus on building up your immune system today I've decided to try and look after myself better so I've made a smoothie. If I focus on feeding myself well then maybe if there's something wrong I'll be stronger to deal with it. It's also a good distraction. I really hope your appointments come through quickly for you sending you strength and patience to help you. It could be lots of things and not all lumps , masses are cancer. I really hope they hurry up for you keep posting if your scared we will try and support you, take care x

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    Hi, sorry to hear your issues. The waiting game is horrible especially with this coronavirus.

    I too am waiting for appointments following bloods and X-ray. Thought I had hurt leg muscle at gym but GP (who also mentioned smoking I gave up 2.6 yrs ago) sent me for tests. I don't feel unwell so in complete shock. Receptionist told me the bloods showed abnormal /cancer cells when I rang, since then nothing. Leg hurts a bit.
     

    All I can do is empathise with you, keep yourself distracted watch rubbish movies anything- and look after you. GP told me to look after me. So face masks, long baths, long walks if you can. And good food. I am isolating too just in case.

     

    Good luck hope you stay sane, your not alone xx

     

     

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    Thank you! That is good advice and I hope everything is okay with you. I'm currently still working as I work in healthcare so it is keeping me busy and I have less time to think about it all. I'm in quite a bit of pain a lot of the time so working is keeping my mind off that! I'm crossing my fingers that my blood work comes back with hopefully clearer answers then I would be in a better position to prepare myself for good or bad! The tone the GP was using was just edging on being too serious I think that's why I was all over the place right afterwards. X

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    It must've been a shock if you have been feeling okay! I hope everything goes well and things come back quickly with regards to appointments etc! 
     

    im still working as im in healthcare so it's good for now but I have noticed I'm struggling a bit with being in pain and I'm so tired but sometimes it does work as a good distraction! 
    I think I'm going to wait a while with all that's going on and so just hoping the blood work comes back with a more definitive answer so I know whether to prepare myself for not so great news but even a week feels like forever it's only been one day and it feels like it's been a month since I had the blood taken! 
     

    Thanks for commenting it does help just to even talk about it a little! X

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