About a month ago I went for my first ever smear test (age 24). I've been vaccinated with the HPV vaccine and (possibly naively) thought everything was going to be okay. Especially because I've only ever had sex with one person, so I thought that it wouldn't even be an issue with HPV. 

I got the letter back yesterday saying I'm HPV + and have borderline cell changes. Which even though the letter and leaflet have been very helpful in telling me all about the next stage, which is the colposcopy, I'm worried like crazy. 

My mother has recently been diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer, and what with that and now my recent smear result, I'm just worrying myself silly. I'm convinced it's going to be bad because that's just how everything seems to be going recently. 

They've said to expect a letter with a colposcopy appointment within the next two weeks, but I just can't seems to get it out of my head. I'm all sorts of emotions and don't really know how to calm myself down.