Hello everyone

Well I stumbled across this forum as like a lot of us here my smear has came back borderline cell changes and HPV positive. I had HPV positive smear last year and they called me back a year later and here I am terrified.  Im 51 and have absolutely no symptoms to date. Although I was on the pill until December last year so unsure what my normal periods should be doing as yet as still settling down.  I feel, like most of us absolutely horrified that I even have HPV and still have it one year on and now the cell changes have worried me to death.  I only got the letter today asking me to call the hospital and make appointment for colposcopy.  Im scared that they will find something really sinister, not sure how Im going to cope with this. As a single mum to 4 beautiful girls who need me Im thinking all sorts of scenarios ( I know I shouldnt be) they need me.  Any calming advice very welcome :) thank you all xx