Hi, I'm new I'm here and I'm struggling to go on.. I'm 20 years old and have been suffering with symptoms since my first son at 13, I know very young but happened in a very sensitive circumstance.
 

Since then I started having very heavy discharge that smells foul, I've suffered with terrible pelvic pain resulting in my appendix being removed however this wasn't the cause and was kept in hospital for pain management for 5 days with no answers. 

In the last 3 years I've had bleeding in between periods, painful sex and bleeding afterwards and more heavy bloody discharge and lots of heavy long periods. I had my 2nd baby in June 2019 and my symptoms are getting no better. 

I recently had high vaginal swabs which were normal. I had a scan in January which revealed moderate free fluid which led to antibiotics for Pelvic Inflammatory Disease which hasn't taken any symptoms away and my doctor weren't convinced because all my swabs and bloods and other tests were normal. 
I was then FINALLY referred to a gynaecologist. I seen her yesterday and she recommended a laparoscopy for endometriosis. But then she examined my cervix and was immediately concerned and referred me to have an urgent colposcopy even though she said it could just be a cervical erosion. I have been concerned that it could be cervical cancer for years and when asking for a smear I would be turned down due to my age. I even looked at paying privately but as most of you can understand that a full time working young mom with 2 children and a house to keep up cannot simply afford to have a private smear.

I'm really worried about this colposcopy and cannot stop thinking the worst.. does the colposcopy hurt and she said they may need to take a biopsy, as someone who suffers with anxiety and depression I just need someone to talk to about it because I don't want to worry my family.. the pain is sometimes so painful and radiates to my down below and down my legs and alternates between both sides of my lower pelvis, opening my bowels is really painful all the time too, my depression is getting worse and I can't bare being in pain anymore my children need me :(