For the last 5 years I've had a smear every year, it comes back abnormal and then I go for a colposcopy. So far I've only needed to have biopsies and have another smear in 12 months  

When my smear was due last year I was pregnant. Through my pregnancy I was hospitalised because of bleeding, because of the bleeds I had to have internal examinations done to check my cervix every few days . 

I've always found smear tests painful because my cervix is tilted but while I was pregnant they were having to give me gas and air because it was so painful . I had my daughter in November so I've booked my smear test for the beginning of March. I know it's so important for me to get it done but I am so scared of how much it will hurt. I'm traumatised from the internals during the pregnancy and I really don't think I will cope if it starts to hurt. Is there anything I can do or ask for to help me? 

Sorry this is so long!