I'm in the same situation but with my husband. I too have lost people to cancer. He has a suspicious lesion that needs more tests. Doctor hasn't given much information and I have googled which is the wrong thing to do. Also no symptoms and he is very well - he has other health issues but nothing wrong with him at the moment, this was found by chance. I have cried for a week, can't eat and am dreading trying to sleep. Beside myself and not able to focus on anything else. I have 2 children that need me. If you can get some help with your baby and talk to someone. My parents are both gone and I have no siblings - I literally went though my phone book today to see who I could talk to and ended up ringing a local cancer charity. This has to be ok for you and for me - really hope it will. Breast cancer is not the worst so try to breathe and stick to facts at the moment. Wish I could take my own advice 

Thanks for replying, I wish you the best. Keeping my fingers crossed for both of us and trying to stay off google x

Hi,

I wish Dr google could be banned as all it does is send people into panic mode. Nothing on the internet will be able to tell the outcome of your husband's tests so best to stay away from it. You gave some good advice to Glittersgold now all you have to do is take your own advice, take each day as it comes and try not to dwell on something that may never happen. As you say you have two children who need you so try and keep busy with them. Fingers crossed everything will turn out fine.

Thank you for your reply and firstly I'm so sorry to hear that you were diagnosed with cancer. Yes I agree I'm definitely racing ahead I think it's hard when you just care about people so much. But I do need to wait. Unfortunately over the last few days my mother has found an area of thickening in one breast that she previously hadn't found on a check. She thinks there could be a lump there. But we will just have to wait and see- I am just terrified I lose her.

Of course your worried, we all worry about loved ones. Fingers crossed all goes well at the breast clinic x

Thank you, unfortunately the scans at the clinic confirmed that it is most likely cancer. They spotted a tumour around 1.5 cm in one breast but they do however feel there's no involvement in the lymph nodes. So we are now awaiting the results of the biopsy to confirm that it is cancer and determine the next treatment. I am petrified but my husband reassures me that she will be ok. I'm still worried about losing her and worried it's an aggressive cancer but I can only take one day at a time.