My mum died of bladder cancer 19 years ago now I am waiting for a biopsy on my bladder. I am the same age as my mum was when she was first diagnosed and I'm scared stiff. I feel so disconnected from everyone Which is affecting all of my relationships. I had major surgery back in September last year which shook me and now this. I have grown up daughters who I adore and need so much from me emotionally but I feel like I am failing them on so many levels and I have no one to talk to about any of this because they can't possibly understand and I don't have the ability to explain effectively or ask for help. I feel so hopeless right now