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Hi everyone. 

I'm feeling really upset, scared and alone. 

For several months ive been suffering with bladder issues, urgency, frequency, leaking, getting up 6/7 times a night with urgency, and at times an inability to urinate despite being desperate. I've no pain or burning, no abnormal urine smell and no infection/uti having done a few urine samples, only abnormality present in all has been microscopic blood.

Blood sugars normal. 

Blood tests done have included full blood count, kidney, thyroid, liver, urea, electrolyte, diabetes, all negative.

As time has passed I've been suffering with left pelvic pain, lower left back pain and awful fatigue. I've lost over a stone in weight and have horrible body itching, especially my legs and breasts without any rash or bites. 

 

Most recently I've been suffering from what I can describe as rectal spasm/pain/pressure, chronic diarrhoea but never feeling like I've completely emptied, stomach cramps- especially after eating, and most recently rectal bleeding (bright red blood) which I found incredibly frightening. I saw a doctor, after checking my back passage and performing a rectal exam, he could not determine the cause of the bleed or pain.

After months of back and two I have now been referred for cytoscopy, CT/ultrasound and colonoscopy under the 2 week referral.

I'm in my early 30's and absolutely terrified. 

Has anyone ever suffered with this kind of combination of bladder and bowel symptoms? If so, were there benign reasons behind them? Can cancer cause this? 

I'm so tired, I can't remember the last time I had a full night's sleep. I feel really alone, I don't have a supportive or even concerned family and the only friend I felt I could talk to has seized up with the mention of cancer as a possibility. 

I am trying to rationalise my symptoms to reassure myself and not get too consumed with the possibility of a cancer diagnosis. 

I don't know what to do with my self and I am finding it hard to cope. 

Not knowing what is wrong with me and the feeling of lacking any control over my body and situation is really distressing. I just keep crying. I feel completely helpless.

 

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    Hi Ennee,

    I am so sorry you are going through this right now. I know it is easier said than done, but try to calm yourself. I can't speak as a medical professional, but I know that worry makes any symptoms we are having much worse. You are doing the right thing and taking charge of your health and  not ignoring it. Whether it's something or not, you are on your way to feeling better. There are so many of us on here that have been in your shoes, waiting to find out what is wrong. We're here for you no matter what!

    Laura xx

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    Hello Ennee,

                           the situation you find yourself in will never be easy to deal with, so it is positive that you will have a full range of examinations shortly which should provide clear information as to the cause.

    Please keep in mind that you cannot change the diagnosis, but you can affect the outcome since stress will put your body under increasing pressure.

    At this stage the one really positive thing you can do is to stay as calm as possible.Your body is a tremendous thing ,filled with the power to fight and heal itself,so time to be its best friend by being kind to it and giving your full support.Eat, drink, sleep, rest, exercise and find the way to be as normal as you possibly can, its really important to give yourself the best chance you can, and how you proceed from here can really help you in your future

     l remember the shock on my initial diagnosis,but l also remember l quickly determined that l and my body were in a battle and in order to win the war l had to allow my foe no advantage,so a calm determined focus set in .Six years on l look back with the knowledge that this was the one thing that l had control of , and it was the thing that pulled me through

      All my best wishes and l hope you are able to do the same

     

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    The only thing I can comment on is the rectal bleeding I have quite heavy rectal bleeding and mine was internal he roofs which where further back than a docs finger could reach, the positive is that the bloods bright red meaning it's fresh and from lower down in your bowel rather than deeper back in to your intestines. I have all these bowl symptoms you have listed as well as the pain and I suffer with quite bad IBS, only a colonoscopy can rule anything more serious out so try to remain calm until you have seen the doctor, I know that's easier said than done but worrying will only make your other symptoms worse as a lot of them you mentioned can be triggered or made worse by stress, hope you get the answers you want 

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