Terrified!

Hello everyone, I'm so sorry to put this onto you all but I don't want to talk to family or friends just yet. I'm beside myself with worry. I'm certain my uterus is enlarged and I've done a really stupid thing and googled ovarian cancer and I have all the symptoms. I have made an appointment with my doctor for Monday, I've been putting it off for at least a month! I just need someone to talk to and sorry but you guys have got the short straw haha. One minute I think I'm being silly and it's nothing, next minute I'm planning my end of life! But I realise most you reading this will understand and have been there. My husband know but I don't want to tell him how worried I am as he's working away and I don't want to worry him. He's back next week and coming with me to the doctors. I wake up in the night terrified and thoughts are really black. I should add that my older brother has terminal cancer too so might be too much for rest of my family if I tell them how I feel

  • Aw, I'm so sorry you are going through this. I know you have posted on my forum a few moments ago. I'm afraid I don't have any advice to offer other than, keep yourself busy, take care of yourself, and don't google. That's the mistake I made. I've diagnosed myself, and just keep re-reading the same terrifying things over and over. It's not good for our mental health to put ourselves through this torture. 
     

    stay positive, and we're here for each other x