A long time is indeed a very long time to wait. You will probably think of little else. The standard advice is to stay busy and try not to think about it  but, as most people on this forum know, including myelf,  this is easier said than done! So I wish you the very best in toughing this week out. And I know you will.

Remember there is a great chance it is not lung cancer. I'm not a medic, but know that any shadow on the lung is taken very seriously. But there are lots of possible causes.

Good luck. Harry

Thank you Harry I just kind of need someone to say its OK to have lost it a bit. 

So I went for my appointment at the lung clinic ion hospital and the first thing that happened was they brought in the cancer lung nurse.  They've showed me my xray and my left lung is full of fluid, or so it seems.  I'm booked in for a ct scan tomorrow morning. 

They still are saying it might not be cancer but I just don't know what to think. Ive felt so well this week compared to a few weeks ago and I'm trying to keep positive. I've kind of told my mam and dad without mentioning the actual c word. I've told the kids I'm going for an asperation and they need the ct scan to see where they'll put the needle.

I hate not being in control.