Hi all. I'm female, nearly 20 - in two weeks in fact. 
  I have been matching all the symptoms for bone marrow cancer (I didn't know at the time that's what I was matching). I went for lots of bloods etc and my FBC's came back abnormal. 
  After some vicious googling (I know I shouldn't have) I found this type of cancer and now I am terrified. I hate hospitals, needles, treatments etc. I feel sick to my stomach with worry. My doctor couldn't fit me in to see me today but he's calling me soon. I feel like he won't tell me the full story over the phone and I'll have to go all weekend without knowing. I'm so scared. I'm waiting alone right now on My sofa for the call. My life would change forever. I do tons of travelling, long distance relationships. I just don't see how it would all work. I'm so scared.