I feel all over the place with anxiety having been to the breast clinic on Tuesday. My breast issues started away back in 2016 when I discovered a 3cm lump in my left breast at what they term the 12 o'clock position of a clock face during palpating, mammogram and ultrasound. Three biopsies were carried out and I was given a bit of reassurance the benign had NO sinister signs they could see but the biopsie results would back this up which they did. I had the benign tumour as they called it removed during day surgery under a general anaesthetic and put it behind me.
This time however, I felt a lump in the SAME place. I also have an itch that periodically tingles over the breast with a flat red rash, so I was sent back to the breast clinic, only felt hit with a brick by the time I came home and so confused, taking anxiety attacks the minute my eyes are open. I saw a breast nurse,not a consultant like the last time in 2016. She palpated the lump and sent me for a mammogram and ultrasound scan, as well as told me I would get my results that day too.I went and had the mammogram,then was taken for my scan in the room across the way. The Senior Radiologist for the breast clinic did the ultrasound and told me what he was seeing and made his comparison to the previous lump. He said it was 18mm and there was a change in this one that wasn't there before in 2016. All stages of all of this going on was discussed by himself and two other doctors. He wanted to carry out 2 biopsies and put a small metal tag on the suspicious area and the mammogram repeated.
I took the report back to the nurse I first saw who explained they had found a suspicious area of this lump and I would need to go back for my results next week. She kept referring to my lump in 2016 until i told her it had been removed. She thought it was same lump and said if I had never been to the breast clinic she would have said the lump I have is cancer with what they see and say about the lump I have...She had my removed 2016 lump still in her mind. It's not the same one,it's a different one so I'm terrified now. The way the radiologist was and things he was saying made me feel he was trying to tell me something without having the scaring me there's a problem. I told my husband I felt he was trying to prepare me for a possible different outcome. I feel so sick with fear.
Don't misunderstand me though when saying..the nurse was amazing. She just kept referring to my old removed lump forgetting its not there. She was so lovely. Everyone in that breast clinic is amazing. I'm just all over the place now.
What can I expect when I go back?
