Stressed after colposcopy need advice x

I had my colposcopy on Monday 23rd Dec

i bleed heavily after intercourse so this has put a stop to a relationship with my husband 

I had a clear/ normal smear in feb 2019

after a hysteroscopy I was referred for an urgent colposcopy 

I have no erosion no infection no stis etc 

when he went in to look he commented he didn't expect to see what he saw as I had a normal smear in February , he then done the test that showed up all abnormal cells and took biopsys 

I'm near sick with worry ! 
I've a tilted cervix so have read that that might be a reason for clear smear 

i just can't get my head around it , I can't understand what would be causing the bleeding 

I can't understand how I'd a normal smear in feb to suddenly needing biopsys 

Just need someone I can talk to 

someone mentioned hysterectomy on the 23rd but I just wanted out of there I'd work on Xmas eve and 5 kids to sort 

Christmas has went in a blur 

I'm 39 5 kids 

im just not myself  I just need people who have went through similar no matter the diagnosis to talk to x