Not sure if this is in the right bit just selected the options closest to what I need. 

I had a colposcopy/loop excision and biopsy under general anethestic on the 6th November (high grade HPV and severe abnormal changes - smear result) Shortly after the 6th I recieved a copy of the letter the hospital sent my GP. 

"At colposcopy the squamocolumar junction was not seen in its entirety due to her progestogen only contraception" I understand this bit. The depo has caused my cervix to kind of invert so it was difficult to see everything they would normally like to see. 

It went on

"There was an area of acetowhite epithelium lip of cervix which I took to equate to high grade disease" 

Excuse me what?!! 

High grade disease??!!! 

Is this the consultants way of saying yup that's cancer or is it his way of confirming the smear result? 

I've called the hospital today, my histology is back but no letter typed up so they're unable to tell me over the phone. 

I'm so anxious, I'm on edge, everyone is treading on eggshells around me. I need to be able to press play on my life but for now we're stuck on pause. 

Any insight would be lovely.