Hi, I'm 32, 33 next month ... I had my first ever smear on 30th Oct after finding out a school friend had died of cervical cancer and I'd been having bad back pain, pain during sex for quite some time and finding a lump on my cervix I plucked up the courage to get it done.

I had a letter on the 12th November saying that I had high grade (severe) dyskaryosis and required further treatment and I had appointment on the 18th nov to have a colposcopy carried out.

at the appointment they carried out the test and said that they where very worried and are concerned that the cell changes have already gone over to low grade cancer they took a biopsy (from what I saw on the screen it was the majority of my cervix as well as the lump taken out) they said that they would be rushing the results through as there very worried..

on 21st nov my back pain and craps had become unbareable and they took me into hospital. They said every looks as though it's healing well after the procedure I had done and not to worry 

im panicking about the results as anyone would and don't know how much longer I can take not knowing, I also suffer with EUPD which is making the way I feel 10 times worse.

i feeling a lot of guilt and anger that I ignored all the letters for going to have a smear I'm really struggling and hating that I have mental health problem that could potentially be the reason I have cancer