Hey there, my advice is plz try not to worry until u get ur results I know that sounds pointless but the truth is u don’t know what it is yet so please don’t think of the worst case scenario coz it’s horrible to be stressed over something like this, also medicine is getting very advanced and so many people do survive from cancer, but yeh plz try to stay calm coz u don’t know what it is yet it’s a survival instinct that ur mind is thinking of the worst case scenario but there r many more possibilities! 

Im sending you all my prayers,

cecile xx 

ps also if it helps talk  to ur friends and family- don’t feel like ur bothering them and let them hear ur worries, but try to live a normal life before the results coz what if all this stress was over nothing? And u know what? I believe u can face whatever is thrown at u and overcome it- but never ever give up coz a lot of how we get better is in our mind always just think "I will get better!" Coz it may sound ridiculous but words r very powerful.

I'm so so scared. I have big plans for next year and so scared to go back to the doctors in case of what they will find.

I'm going mad and I dont want the worse to happen I cant take it anymore.. 

Xx

Hi Worrier

I see you have posted a lot about this and are not feeling reassured. You want everything to be ok, but the only thing that will make it ok is going to the doctor and having this investigated. We are all scared when we think something’s wrong with us, we all want it to be nothing....sometimes it is and sometimes it isn’t. But you won’t know until you go. No matter how much we can sympathise with your worries, none of us can tell you what’s wrong or tell you it will be ok. What you shouldn’t do is self diagnose and google, unless you want to scare yourself silly. We can match our symptoms to all sorts on the internet and it will likely be worse case scenatio and not relevant to us. 

This health anxiety seems to be consuming your life...so I would tell that to the gp to see if he/she can help with that too. Otherwise you are going to go round and round in circles here on a forum where people can listen and sympathise but aren’t able to do much else. Can you try and get a quicker appointment with your gp or phone up to say you will take a cancellation? It’s hard taking that first step but once you do, you’ll be another step closer to getting this sorted out. xx