So so scared help :(

Hi I'm tash I'm 26 and I put my smear off for a year due to fear now realised how silly that was. Yesterday I received a letter saying they have booked me an appointment for coloscopy in an oncology unit to me this means one thing they've found cancer. I'm absoloutley terrified. This is all within 13 days of my smear so they must be worried they have found severe dyskaryosis and I tested positive for hpv I would be so grateful for anyone's stories or opinions thanks in advance tash x