The waiting

Hello I just wondered how everyone keeps busy and their mind off things whilst waiting between appointments and for results?

my story is I was getting aches in my right breast almost a month ago now, which progressed to me finding 2 dimples in my right breast and then a large lump.

id seen a gp who referred me to the breast clinic another wait) and when I attended my breast clinic appointment the doctor said she could feel 2 lumps and a large mass, my scans were then rearranged for another week because the scanning department was too full so I attended yesterday for my scans.

i have had an untrasound, then set of mammogram images, biopsy in which they had to take 9 samples and leave 2 metal tags on (which I don't know if this is usual procedure?) I then had to have another mammogram to have pictures of the metal tags.

i am now awaiting my results and I have an appointment for next Wednesday. 
 

I am starting to panic and I am trying to stay busy but I keep breaking down in to random fits of tears. I just feel like an emotional mess.

i am trying to prepare myself for them telling me it's cancer, as even though this won't be confirmed until the results are back I got the impression yesterday from all the tests and asking for extra samples that it is cancerous and I really need to prepare.

just don't know what to do with myself or how I can even prepare for this?

id love to hear advice or hear from others in similar situations please

  • Hi,

    Sorry to hear you are going through a hard time. 

    Just want to say you are not alone. I too have had scans, biopsies and marker clip in 16 days ago. Getting results later today and starting to feel worried. I have no advice other than try and keep busy and remain positive. 

    Hope you get good results xx

  • Hi, I seem to be keeping busy doing the most mundane things as I'm too distracted to do anything which takes concentration! My results are tomorrow so I've been waiting 10 days which has meant little or no sleep - so as you can imagine I look great :D

    I too am expecting the worst and have been making a list of questions, when I start feeling overwhelmed by it all I just think I'd rather it was me than my family or friends.

    There are so many positive people on here it's really inspirational, it's important to know we're not alone xxx

  • The waiting is like a form of torture. I had an excision biopsy of a lymph node 12 days ago. I'd already had a needle biopsy which raised suspicion of Hodgkins lymphoma, it seems unlikely results will be this week now, so it'll have been 8 weeks from my initial referral. I'm so done with it already, my husband keeps telling me to stop being so impatient. I hope your results are soon.

  • It's just awful, I am working from home as I just don't want to be around people at the moment, I have been snappy and moody with my children too which I feel dreadful for. It's just the stress has totally got to me. I'm 35 and never expected to encounter anything like this so young.

     

    how did your results go if you don't mind me asking?

  • What questions were you going to ask?

    the doctor asked me if I had any questions and I just didn't know what to say. I just can't even get the words together to talk about it.

    let me know how your results go. 
     

    im wishing everyone good luck, I hope it turns out to be something benign for all of us 

     

     

  • Hi, yes here's hoping for us all - did you get your results yet? Regarding the questions I've added the link below, it just helped me think as my mind is all over the place!! 

    Just an hour to go until my appointment and I feeling quite sick about it...

    https://breastcancernow.org/information-support/facing-breast-cancer/diagnosed-breast-cancer/diagnosis/questions-you-may-want-0
     

  • Hi Louisa.g,

    Unfortunately, my results confirmed cancer. Now waiting for MRI to check further. Lumpectomy, radiotherapy, tamoxifen for 5 years. Hopefully no chemo, but that will depend on MRI.  Still in shock, got 2 kids (13 & 10) and due to remarry in March, so looks like wedding will be off.

    I'm praying you get better results than me and try to remain positive.

    Let me know how you get on. Sending you lots of hugs xx  

  • Hi Flou,

     

    Praying you get good results today x

  • Thank you flou,

    I have just spent some time reading through all of that it's very informative and I feel a bit more 'in the know' now about things. Not sure if that's a good thing because fear and anxiety is really kicking in but it's definitely important to know.

    i don't get my results until next week on Wednesday and of course the days are dragging and it's difficult to put to the back of your mind and do other things.

    i feel like If I prepare my self for the worst then maybe I will handle the results better. But at the same time I feel like I'm going mad convincing myself it's spread as I've come down with a cough today, which shouldn't be unusual as my children have all had colds and my youngest has a cough but of course I'm over thinking things. I've also got back ache.

    i do a lot of crafting so really want to just absorb myself in that to take my mind off things but finding I've lost my mojo completely even for Christmas themed sewing which I usually get excited for I just feel deflated.

    Keeping my fingers crossed for you and your results today xx

     

  • Glasgowgal oh I'm so sorry,

    did they give you results of type and staging at this point so you know what your up against at least?

    you could still go ahead with the wedding, I'm sure your fiancé and children will be super supportive of you and help you along the way to make your day special.

    try to stay positive, I'm new to this myself but I've heard More positive outcome stories than negative.

    sending you my love xxx