Hello 

I am new to these forums, but have got to to the point in which I am struggling to function with anxiety. I am really hoping for some reassurance. I have two beautiful twins that are under 3 years old and a partner, all of which I adore and want to see to grow old. 

Started five weeks ago, I was really run down after a stressful week and none stop 9 hour drive. Had thin, dark green mucus pour from nose, as I unloaded my car. No blood was visible. The next day I blew my nose and the was blood in mucus. (None in my syliva at any stage). The next day I had less blew nose again and had blood specs and severe throat pain. Went straight to GP who prescribed antibiotics for tonsilitis. Told to come back after a week of I did not feel any better. 

Returned to GP and bloods taken for mono and she suggested I come back in two weeks. Few days later bloods came back all clear. Full blood and protein counts were taken and came back all clear. Pain did seem to ease off while on antibiotics but still felt uncomfortable. 

Returned to GP as my throat still felt sore and right tonsil appeared swollen, given stronger antibiotics, pain didnt seem to ease this time, returned to GP a third time and given further different antibiotics. Also given medication for possible heart burn. This did not work and the swollen right tonsil remained with throat pain. GP advised that she would make an urgebt ENT referral.

Attended this ENT referral and had the camera down my nostril to check nasal passage, back of throat and vocal cords etc. Said everything was normal minus the right tonsil being enlarged, so got a senior consultant to take a look. I was called  back to the room and the was the same consultant, a nurse and a second consultant.

He took a look and told me that he needed to be stright with me and told me that I could have Lymphoma, he wasnt delicate in the way he spoke, may have been due to language barriers. He then told me he didnt think that I did have it, as I looked physically fit and had no swollen lymph nodes or night sweats. I said about the blood and he said could have just been irritation a didnt seem worried, as this had not occurred since the first time.

After some what reassuring me in a very confusing way, he then told me that due to my enlarged tonsil, he would need to complete the operation to remove them and complete a biopsy. 

This has just sent me into a wild panic mode, I have had chest pains along side the sore and burning throat. I am worried about the time and dont even feel I can plan past Christmas. I lost a friend last year to throat cancer, she only lived a couple of months past diagnosis.

I have previosly been in good health and am 29 years old, other than I had chronic tonsillitis as a child, was due to have the op but grew out of it up until now. So never had the op. I was a mild smoker and have never been a heavy drinker.

I am just waking up in the morning with the throat pain, worrying about symptoms and thinking of my children. Spend most of my days trying to reassure myself. I am also anxious about the operation and biopsy results. Should know a date for the operation tomorrow. 

Feel free to tell me to Man up to, it's just I want to be here and healthy for my babies.