I’m looking for a small bit of advice. Background info clear smear 2012 fast forward 3 years to recall smear High Grade CIN 3, 5 lletz, 3 cone biopsies, D&C after multi-disciplinary meeting of consultants , found no abnormalities in uterus (cytology consultants felt possible uterine cells in smear) endo cervical and cervical cells normal.... September 2019 still abnormal smears , clear margins, biopsies clear but smear abnormal.... next step results pending in 12 weeks full cervix removal & 60% ability to get pregnant and following success surgery for trans abdominal cerclage , c section followed by full hysterectomy. Question is anybody in same boat? Consultants baffled as to abnormal smears at this point, colposcopy shows no abnormalities, biopsy none but smear yes. 33 years old one 14 year old and now deciding whether to forego surgery come off depo provera (contraceptive injection) after 14 years and try for a baby as it is bigger chance to conceive now. Withered at this point nearly 5 years on and 52 colposcopy visits later. Appreciate any advice at this point, staring to lose hope