Really anxious at the moment awaiting melanoma test results. Keep telling myself its absolutly nothing...of course its going to be nothing. But the other half of me has been a wreck with thinking about the potential severity of the situation and i guess worse case scenario. But im not sure if iv now made myself ill worrying more then i realise i am. Iv had an unsettled tummy the last 4 days almost to the point of incontinence and felt nausaus amongst a few other symptoms, its been affecting what i eat and if i eat. I basically feel how i did when i had noro-virus once, i feel drained. And im not sure if its a bug or anxiety causing me to make myself ill. And i know people will insist i do, but i havnt told anyone about my potential melanoma, not a single person, its a personal choice every person and their family is different, i dont really have friends and only a small family with just 1 parent so at this stage iv chosen to keep it to myself unless it turns into something becuase the worry and stress to everyone else would just tip me over the edge with anxiety, id basically end up looking after them instead. Just reaching out to see if anyone else got similar symtoms or knows how extreme anxiety can get so i can feel reassured maybe its just a bit of worry sickness. Iv now commited the sin of google diagnosing myself and its trying to convince me i have ibs or chrons.. Night 5 with no sleep
