Sick with worry - lymph nodes

Long story short (ish)

 

End of may, felt lump on neck. Knew it was most likely a lymph node so waited 2 weeks as I knew that's what GP would say. Went to GP. He referred me to have US but said felt like node/cyst.

Mid July, went for scan. 

End of July, results show multiple (3?) enlarged nodes on right side of neck. Largest being 2.4cm. reactive. Scan again in 6 weeks.

Fast forward to now, I have major anxiety over them. I can now feel 2, and easier to feel. Not sure but think they are bigger. Now I feel a small one other side (mirrored so exact same place).

Bloods clear end April.

No other symptoms. Not tender, no pain, no illness.

 

Like many others I suffer health anxiety and I am out of my mind with worry. I know no one here can say what they are. But I tell my husband and he thinks I'm crazy for worrying. No one gets it. Of course it would be easier to forget them. But I get in a visious circle of worrying, tests, results. And usually I'm fine, but these are the most physical symptom i have. I can't deny they are there.

Can reactive nodes turn into cancer? Could I have cancer somewhere else and that's why they are up? Or would cancer be inside them? Will I have to have a biopsy if they've grown or stayed the same?

I have ezcema on the nape of my neck, but under my hair. I am on steroids for it (liquid) but terrible at applying. But I've had that about a year and they weren't up before.

  • Hi Khammy how did your ultrasound go? I hope all is well

  • Hiya, I had it Tuesday but won't find out results until Thursday at my gp. Was very nerve wracking. Running nearly an hour late. Same tech but he was a lot more thorough this time which I'm assured by my husband is good. But to me it felt like a whole lot of clicking meant more node swollen and a big problem. He was up behind my ears, on my collarbone and thyroid. Checked both sides. Last time it was just the bit where they were. And he asked me why I was there which made me nervous that he'd not read his own notes from the last scan! So all in all I'm dreading the results and worried it night even be worse than lymphoma now.

  • Results today at GP - thyroid, glands all normal, nothing suspicious on scan so have been discharged. GP said it could be from the ezcema on my scalp but either way I'm happy that it's all normal and I can finally relax! Until the next scare

  • I am so happy for you!! I know what you mean about "until the next scare". Health anxiety is so difficult! Within days or even hours of finding out somethings ok I can move on to another worry :( have you told your doctor about your anxiety? Its hard to beat without support. Cbt is a kind of therapy that can help. Or maybe medication? I have needed medications because my health anxiety is so hard to deal with. I really hope you can get control and not move on to something else x

  • I thought I'd feel really happy and I am somewhat, but 10 weeks or so of worrying has wasted so much time. 

     

    I've self referred for CBT and I'm on the waiting list so that's one good thing. My husband is very against medication for anxiety so trying to avoid that, though I have tried in the past without telling him and not got on well with the couple I've tried. X