2 weeks ago I woke up with a dry scratchy throat as the day went by I realised when I swallowed I could feel a lump inside my throat when I went to touch my neck I felt a fleshy lump on the outside. After a day or 2 I couldn’t feel the lump as I swallowed but the lump on the outside was still there. I went to the GP 5 days after he felt the lump and said he was going to refer me to the ENT doctor for an ultrasound FNA. A couple of days after I noticed the lump was getting smaller and it was kind of moveable however, I also felt a pea sized hard lump underneath the original lump (this is now 1 week) which doesn’t move I don’t know if it’s a enlarged lymph node whichappeared or if it was hiding under the first lump. I felt fine and I haven’t been losing weight I did feel lethargic the week before the lump appeared but I believe that was because I was so busy at work. I’ve been going to work everyday, sleeping fine and waking up early. I just haven’t been able to go gym because I’ve been feeling lazy and demotivated. I did go once though and it was fine (I usually go gym 3/4 times a week)

I’ve been inspecting the lump and keeping notes everyday to show the doctor when I go for my scan, I even drew a circle around the first lump everyday but a rash appearead because I think I was using eyeliner so I stopped. On Sunday evening just gone my throat became really itchy and yesterday I had a really bad itchy throat. I managed to go gym and I spent an hour in there I felt proud because I was able to do my routine with a couple of longer breaks (1-2 minutes rest) which I thought was normal because I haven’t exercised consistently in 2-3 weeks. I also struggled to sleep because my nose was blocked and I had a headache so I took paracetamol to get myself to sleep. I woke up today with a headache and when I went to the bathroom I coughed up really dark basically black phlegm. I was petrified I then coughed up a small amount of browny/ yellow phlegm with red specks. I called 111 and ended up in my GP again. My GP told me to say Ahhhh and said he couldn’t see I had a chest infection so I should just wait for my ENT appointment. He didn’t even feel my lump (located on the right side. It also moves as I swallow which means it’s fixated) he  just checked under my jaw for swelling. I was in there for 2 minutes before he sent me away!

I wont lie I keep googling my symptoms as I think it’s getting worse. When I noticed the lump I felt absolutely normal now I have a sore throat and coloured phlegm I keep seeing throat and lung cancer floating around when I google I know I shouldn’t. When I lie down my nose gets blocked which could explain why I struggled to sleep but I don’t have a really bad cough but I do clear my throat a lot. I’m a very anxious person and I work myself up so I have been crying on and off since my first GP appointment last Monday. I can’t explain how scared I am, I’m only 25 and I’ve only told my sister because she had cancer 6/7 years ago and she’s now a nurse she keeps telling me to relax and I probably just have an infection or virus but I can’t. I wouldn’t know how to deal with cancer. I have no one to talk to and I’m absolutely scared to tell my mother. Sorry for the very long post!!!!

SA