Enlarged lymph node - health anxiety is up the wall.

Hi everyone,

I’m a 20 year old who’s driving herself sick with worry. A year and a half ago I found a lump in my neck where your cervical lymph nodes are. It’s painless (maybe a bit achy at times), firm but moveable and about 1-1.5cm in size as an estimate. I have no other symptoms.

I know I should’ve got it checked out at the time but I have terrible anxiety and was too scared to go to the doctors about it because I’d pretty much already concluded that I had lymphoma and didn’t want to be told something I didn’t want to hear. 

A year and a half later it’s still there. It seems to fluctuate in size, usually feeling a bit bigger when I feel a bit under the weather and smaller when I’m not. It never gets much bigger than about 1.5-2cm but it never fully goes away and this is what is concerning me. 

I’ve recently moved back home from university and without uni to distract me the health anxiety is kicking in big time. I can’t sleep because I keep myself awake until the early hours of the morning obsessing over google and crying. I’m completely miserable and have convinced myself that I’m riddled with cancer because I’ve left it so long to get it checked out. 

After a massive panic attack on Sunday I went to the walk-in centre where the nurse said he was 99% sure it was nothing to worry about but to get an ultrasound anyway just in case. I’m booked in to see my GP this afternoon to sort out the ultrasound but not sure if I can emotionally take the stress of scans and waiting for results etc because my anxiety is just so severe and debilitating.

Honestly not sure what I’m wanting to get from posting here. I’m just tired of being told by my family that I’m being ridiculous when it’s a very real possibility since the main symptom of lymphoma is a painless swelling that doesn’t go away, which is exactly what I have. I know it should be reassuring that I have no other symptoms but I read that other symptoms only occur in around 40% of cases. I guess I’m just shouting into the void.

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  • Hey lovely,

    honestly felt like I wrote this myself word for word! My anxiety has been super bad and hard to handle. I get too afraid to get it checked. 
     

    Hope everything went well for you xxx

  • Hi!

    I meant to come back and update this forum after my lymph node had been investigated to give other people in the same situation some clarity since people tend to only update after bad news but I completely forgot (sorry!).

    It was incredibly scary getting it checked out. I'd convinced myself it was going to be bad news and they say ignorance is bliss but I basically got frog-marched to the doctors by my parents because I was making myself sick with worry and not eating or sleeping.

    As it turns out, the doctors didn't even want to bother with an ultrasound because they weren't concerned with how it felt at all! He had a prod and a poke and basically said that yes it felt slightly enlarged but it wasn't as big as you would expect a malignant lymph node to be and that it was more likely just a lymph node that came up after a bout of illness and just never went away again.

    I guess he must've been right because 9 months after I got it checked out it's still there! I've had no additional swellings and no worrying symptoms. Sometimes if I'm feeling under the weather it feels a little bit more enlarged but it always goes back down to 1-1.5cm. 

    So I spent a year and a half worrying over absolutely nothing. I completely get where you're coming from in regards to the anxiety. I still get pretty awful health anxiety and still avoid going to the docs a lot but I'm working on it through therapy and I'd 100% recommend it if your anxiety is getting in the way of you getting things checked out.

    Hope you're doing okay and please don't hesitate to message me if you have any questions or concerns xxx

  • Hello. Pleased that you came back to update, hopefully many who write on here regarding lymph nodes might take note instead of trying to diagnose each other. 

    Best wishes

    Lynne

  • Hi I am having the same issue at the moment.

    I am awaiting my blood test results.

    I am an anxiety sufferer anyway and have been told that this can cause my glands to swell.

    I am staying as positive as possible and trying to curve my anxiety with breathing technics and positive thinking. X

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