You have done amazing today. Xxx

Thank you so much it really means a lot. Like you said it’s lovely to have someone to talk to. My family are very much saying the same! It’s like I’ll have five minutes of normality and then o get that sinking feeling in my chest again where I remember. 

I just feel like I like my life how it is now - I don’t want anything to change! I’ve got such a terrible way of thinking. I ALWAYS think I’ll be was small percentage of people who get it young and not only do I think I’ll get it, but like you I start thinking about my funeral etc because I believe I’ll die from it rather than get better. I was crying to the consultant yesterday and she was very blunt and said, “we don’t think you have breast cancer at this moment but even if you did, it is very treatable these days” but that just didn’t calm me down at all. Made me feel worse actually. 

Just a few more days of waiting for you. Do you have a busy weekend planned? That should help. I’m going to try and keep busy!

honestlt come thrueaday morning I think I’m going to be a right mess! 

Cherelle 

xx

I’ve been keeping busy today... I’ve done the housework and popped to B&M - I’m gunna take my son trampolining as well soon. This weekend I will try and keep as busy as possible. I feel better today but knowing me and they way I am I feel awful again soon and be crying and having major meltdowns.

Sometimes consultants can be quite blunt- they do it on a daily basis and sometimes they can be detached from emotions. 

I just am keeping everything crossed for us both. X

Hey Charlotte just wanted to check in and see how you’re doing? 

Not long until we should both get some answers! 

X

Hey , my appointment is tomorrow 

Im in such a state. I just keep thinking the worst. I am really struggling to remain normal and focused on everyday life. 

I just am praying for some good news so I can get on with my life. 

How are you feeling? How long till you get your results? 

I have my first midwife appointment at 9am - something I should be looking forward to but I’m not. And then 11.20 I’m at the breast clinic- just can’t believe this is happening xx

It’s horrible isn’t it. I’m not really coping either. I just keep thinking to myself, “I like my life the way it is now - I don’t want it to change.” 

I really hope tomorrow goes okay for you. I’ll be thinking of you and please let me know how it goes. 

I get my results Thursday and honestly it just feels forever away! I’ve made plans so I’m busy all week but every time I think about going to get my results I feel psychically sick to my stomach. 

X

I will let you know. I am just so worried. I’ve got everything crossed for you. 4 more days- you can do this xxx

Sending you positive vibes today. xxxxxx

Had a biopsy 

they said it looks like nothing to worry about but obviously I won’t feel better till I get that from the results. 

I go back 11.40 Thursday x