Hi Dani !

It is almost impossible not to worry and Google doesn’t always help. 

From my own experience, I felt worse after seeing my GP because I wanted to be told it was nothing to worry about. My GP has since told me that they are advised to err on the side of caution and she thought my under arm lump did not feel right but she’s not an expert in that field so I was given an urgent referral. 

I would say it is far better to get thoroughly checked out even though it is stressful. It’s the not knowing that was most worrying for me.

Try not to let the worry takeover. You are doing the right thing getting checked quickly.

I am sure your husband does understand how stressed you are, my husband done the same thing. If your husband started to panic and stress you would feel worse.  My husband didn’t want to think that I might have cancer so he went into ‘it’ll be fine’mode, worrying for nothing etc. 

Good luck on Monday and let’s us know how you get on x

Hi Dani,

I feel you - it's such a stressful time. The GP will always certainly refer you (that's when I really started to panic) but as AMEGLW says, it's because they always err on the side of caution.

Try to keep yourself busy and do things that make you smile to pass the time.

I have one slightly larger lymph node on one side and through the process realised i could feel both of them quite prominently compared to some people - I think because I'm fairly petite and do yoga. But I discovered that in the height of my panic about my breast lump and my fear just spiralled. 

I googled endlessly and diagnosed the worst and drove myself to exhaustion while I waited for my referral. It was horrendous so I really really hope you can stay off Google and keep yourself busy and distracted. Someone lovely on this forum told me her advice was to not worry about something until there was something to worry about - I now try to take that mantra in life. Wise words.

Sending hugs to you - keep us posted with how you get on xxx

Hi, 

thank you so much for your reply, the rational calm said of me knows to just take it as it comes im driving mysef and my husband insane. Dont know why this time it just feel different its silly but the fact it doesnt hurt is bothering me more. If it hurt id be thinking okay cyst etc. 
 

ive kept busy all day but il admit its just been a shadow over me, i keep thinking the worst when im generally a positive person. Just want monday to hurry up the waiting is the worst. 
 

I will certainly let you know what GP says im expecting a referral  il keepmof google as its making me worse. 
 

thank you 

dani 

Hi Dani,

I was exactly the same...totally rational one minute and then beside myself with worry the next!

If it puts your mind at rest until you know more, my breast cyst was completely painless...I still have it. Never had any pain with it. Except when I was crazy prodding it all the time wondering what it was!

Try to enjoy your evening - thinking of you x

Hi, thank you so much for your reply, its been a long weekend 13 hours and counting il see GP. 
 

just cant settle your advice about your cyst not hurting helps. Its only painful when I squeeze it i just always associate pain with a cyst/abscess etc. 
 

thank you again im going to gontry distract mysef. 
 

dani 

Hi Dani,

Just wondering how you on with the GP ?

M. 

Hi, sorry i couldnt log back in just reset. 
 

Just to update seen GP monday she said it was mobile ? And my breast tissue felt Smooth ? She then said il be sending you to breast clinic on a urgent referral: i got a call today and they're going to see me tomorrow morning. Im so scared ive convinced myself of the worst outcome. 
 

cant sleep cant think straight wonder if theyll tell me anything tomorrow or if il have to wait again for results. 
 

dani x 

Hi, 

sorry for late update i seen GP monday she said lump

was mobile and smooth and sent me on a uregent referral to breast clinic. Im getting seen tomorrow AM. 
 

not sure what to expect a mammogram? Will theybdo a biopsy- if its nothing will they tell me there and then? 
 

my minds doing loops. The waiting is the hardest part. 
 

il let you know what happens tomorrow just cant stop worrying about the worst case outcome. 
 

dani x 

Hi Dani,

That's so good you have your referral so quick, it can be up to 2 weeks but I imagine covid might have quietened things down.

I hope it goes well this morning. I believe you get an ultrasound first (like they do for pregnant women - bit of cold jelly is all!). Then if that's not conclusive they do a mammogram although not sure how that works with an armpit lump. Then they might do a biopsy if they need but I think that can often be unobtrusive.

Let us know how you get on. We are willing it to be good news.

Deep breaths and try to listen to a podcast or something to distract yourself xx