Here is the spot for reference. Btw I'm black if that means anything.[[]]

Where is the spot, the sole of your foot? Its hard to tell, could it be blood under the skin or is it a mole? Have you never noticed it before? 

It's the sole of my foot, I only noticed it a month back I think. My parents swear that it is a birthmark. But worried it looks odd. The key thing I have been looking at is my weight, it is some of the things keeping me sane.

I keep tracking my weight aswell! Just to make sure im not losing some and dont realise. Can I ask if you have health anxiety? I know you mentioned you are going to be doing cbt but is your anx focused on your health? 

Hi Keeks, thank you for your advice, I will just have to see how I feel.  Today I have felt low and anxious about the biopsy, but more so the wait and outcome.  How are you coping with these thoughts? xx 

I've been dealing with in and out of the doctor's since the 2nd and I feel peace knowing it could be bad. If it's nothing great, if it's bad at least it's very treatable. I won't hear anything from my doctor til Monday but I'm outside right now camping enjoying the freash air. That's all I can really do, and I've already thought myself out of worry. I can't tell you to stop worrying it's not as if I could do the same, but I feel eventually you'll feel ok with it, and whatever you hear it'll be ok because you can fight through anything that comes.

Keeks, I hope that my mind can learn to be like yours.  Enjoy the fresh air, being outside and connecting with nature is calming. xxx

I find it so hard to function when my anxiety is really bad. Last week I was in a really bad way. It goes hand in hand with googling though! It gets me in a state then its all I can think of. It was at the point I didnt want to get out of bed or do anything. I hate when it takes over me like that :( the best thing you can do is try not to google. I know thats so hard though! 

Il be thinking of you wednesday Lyn, try and keep busy until then if you can. Sometimes our imagination takes us to dark places when we dont need to go there. 

Orfoahs I would go back to your doctor and tell them how you are feeling. Do they know how bad your fatigue is? Again I think googling isnt helping you too :( I hope your energy starts to pick up and you arent waiting too long for cbt x

They are aware of it. Or i think i wouldn't have these tests but they don't knownwhatbit could be other than anxiety or post viral flu. But being me I'm worried it's cancer hidden and no blood tests have picked it up. 

The fatigue is spoiling things. I'm at a bday partyand my legs feel so heavy. I keeep trying not to panic and think about the results but keep worrying that stuff has been missed. It doesn't help that lymphoma is found mainly through biopsy but no doc thinks it warrents that.