Hi Lyn .. I can imagine work is hard.. I have two weeks holiday and then some time out for appointments .. I found facing people in a group ar eork hardest as I wanted to be invisible .. everyone wasn’t supportive but that’s also challenging 

I only told my closest friend at work and found the littlest things really annoying me so it was hard to keep a lid on it. Then after the core biopsy I wasn’t allowed to lift anything heavy and was very sore so couldn’t risk anything banging into me. I work with farm animals so it was difficult to make up excuses as to why I couldn’t do anything. In hindsight I should have told the people I work with daily that I’d had a hospital procedure (there’s no need to elaborate on that ) because it’s hard enough having the worry that there may be something serious going on without having to worry about work as well. X

Leigh, I work with two other managers of the shop, and we each do two days a week. I have told them what is going on and they are both so understanding.  It is hard work and they both have comittments and holidays and I feel bad that they have uncertainty about cover for me. Mentally, I am in a dark place and it is an effort to even get out of bed in the morning.  This is all before Wednesday when I have the biopsy done! xxx

Keeping everything crossed for you that your biopsy results are clear.  it’s such a dark place to be. It’s on your mind even when you don’t realise it. I felt guilty not telling my workmates when I said I couldn’t do some things that are normally expected of me but also didn’t want to worry them. it was hard to know what to do for best. My thoughts will be with you on Wednesday x

Thank you Leigh. xxx

Lifting sounds like something to be a bit careful with .. can you get adjustments at work for now ?

Unfortunately, no.  My volunteer, on the two days that I work, has a bad arm, is a male and wouldn't have a clue as to sorting anything!  We have worked together for a few years now and he has become a good friend to  me and my husband.  He knows about what is going on and knows what a worrywort I am, so I dont have to put on a false smile with him.  My two other co paid managers who work on other days, are understanding and I just hope that I don t have to leave a lot of unsorted donations for the next one on duty. xx