Hi all,

Sorry about posting I feel terrible for using a forum like this when I haven't even had a confirmed diagnosis. I'm really scared to the point where I'm crying over 5 times a day, haven't been able to enjoy life for over 6 weeks and I essentially sit around depressed.

5 weeks ago I found 3 swollen lymph nodes along either side of my jawline (probably around kidney bean to m&m size), since then I believe I've found 3 more tiny ones under my chin ranging from pea to ball bearing size. I've also found one in my neck (pea sized) which my doctor wasn't sure if it was one or not. She also couldn't feel two in my chin but did feel the pea sized one there. None of them have grown or shrunken since. I am yet to find anymore on my body but I now obsessively check daily which has become it's own problem for me. 

Since finding them my anxiety has blown out of proportion and as mentioned earlier I can't live normally without thinking it's cancer. They are painless, movable and aren't matted or fixed but have been persistent for nearly 6 weeks. I had a FBC, liver function and bone marrow blood test and it came out that I had slightly low WBC and slightly low neutrophils. I believe my numbers were off the top of my head 3.2 WBC and 1.8 neutrophils. 

Finding this out has sent me wild with anxiety and depression and I'm convinced it's only a matter of time before I'm diagnosed with some form of blood cancer or another variant. I've been googling it like crazy and have further made it worse for myself by seeing how hard it is to beat leukemia. My doctor has said that I will need to repeat the blood test in 2 weeks and if numbers have dropped that's when she will be concerned, if they remain the same or improve she's happy not to become too worried about them. 

I'm a 24 year old male and have had anxiety issues my whole life. I'm so scared and don't know where else to turn. I don't know any other reasons why all of these combined don't somehow point to cancer. I've not experienced any of the typical symptoms yet but have had a daily headache that hasn't stopped for 4 weeks. My doctor has said this is possibly due to stress. I also have weird twinges in my neck and joints which makes me think it's cancer also. 

Any support or stories from anyone would really help me in this difficult time. 

Thanks,

Jamie