About 6 weeks ago I started feeling quite bloated and gassy then I had some massive loose stools and some diarreah, I also started having night sweats. I've been through a very stressful time lately with a divorce and moving out of the family home and I was eating a lot of rubbish and drinking a lot. Then I noticed blood on my poop and sometimes on the paper when I wiped. I'm not sure if it's bright red, sometimes it is but is definitely red, this has happened about 8 times in 6 weeks.
I went to the walk in centre and the doctor I saw did a rectal exam and didn't find any evidence of piles, she said it was probably an infection and that if I wanted to I could take a stool sample to my gp and talk to him, she didn't seem overly concerned.
Saw my GP 2 days later. I was extremely anxious at this point and told him the full story including the divorce and my anxiety. He was very nice and said rectal bleeding is very common and that I shouldn't worry. He said he wouldn't be worried as he's a similar age to me (45) and that I should come back in 3 weeks if I was still concerned.
This really eased my mind for a while, all my symptoms went away for around 10 days but the blood came back, not much but enough to terrify me. At this point I'd also got an upset stomach, it seemed like if I ate anything slightly spicy it would make me have loose stools. One day at work after a loose stool in the morning I felt like my rectum was full all day and that I hadn't finished pooping. When I got home I forced one out and there was blood on the toilet paper.
This sent me running back to the gp, a different one this time who was very dismissive and said it was probably piles but if I booked another appointment they would do another rectal exam.
I went back 2 days later and the doctor said he found a very small internal pile. Again this eased my mind for about a week, the bleeding stopped but I started getting what I can only describe as a dodgy tummy. My anxiety at this point was through the roof and I was checking through my stools constantly trying to find any blood.
Yesterday I thought I finally had a grip on it and told myself I was being silly and decided to go back to work, however in the morning I went for my usual morning poo and afterwards my stomach felt really dodgy and I felt like I hadn't finished, this sent me into a massive panic attack and I went straight back to the doctors. He again said he wasn't concerned and thinks my anxiety is responsible for the symptoms. I pushed him to refer me for a colonoscopy, he was reluctant but did refer me and said it might be a long wait as I didn't fit the cancer profile but did take some blood and another stool sample.
The reason I write this is because I'm going out of my mind with worry. All I want to do is stay in bed all day, I can't cope with the uncertainty and I'm having regular panic attacks. I feel like I just want to sleep until the blood test results come back. I can't eat and don't want to see anyone, he signed me off work for another week.
I don't know what I want to get out of posting this on here but I've found writing it down quite therapeutic and any replies would be greatly welcomed.
Thanks.
Jason.
