Results due ....

On the 28 of May I was told by a specialist that a mass of 10.5cm had been discovered in my pelvis .... this was purely an accidental discovery as I had had a CT Spec scan on my spine. ( I’m disabled and currently use a wheelchair & am awaiting surgery on my back.)

To cut from all the details I saw a gynaecologist specialist under the 2 week rule the following week and have since had an MRI looking at my pelvis and abdomen. I had a hysterectomy 23 years ago just leaving me with one ovary which they wanted to ok at. I was given an injection of Buscopan to relax my bowel during the scan too which has made me worry even more.

I was told by my Macmillan nurse that my case was to be discussed on the 21 June. I had the worst night, in fact I was awake all night. All day I remained by my phone awaiting news but nothing. By the end  of the day I got in touch and was told that the report had not been done! This was right at the end of the day. So I was told that it’ll be this Friday-tomorrow.

So there was another very long week to wait.

I have no following appointment booked but the nurse has promised to phone me after th MDT meeting, but what happens then? The specialist said they’d know by looking at the scans whether the mass is malignant or not. I just keep breaking down and sobbing my heart out. 

I feel like my world is falling apart around me, I’m panicking, not sleeping, I keep crying and thinking of every possible outcome. 

  • Hello there - this is such a worry for you. I'm afraid I can't say what might happen after the MDT meeting or comment on your symptoms except to say that relaxing the bowel during your scan doesn't surprise me because the Consultant told me that CT scans can't necessarily see all the bowel - hence the buscopan. But, I DO understand why you are so upset & so on. I've very recently had a cancer scare &, like, you panicked, cried etc. & was convinced, absolutely convinced I was going to die. The fear is awful & it's so ver, very easy, to let your mind run away with a million negative thoughts.

    My tests all came back clear even tho' my symptoms were really awful & I felt so unwell. My GP said that anxiety makes symptoms worse & since my results my symptoms have improved dramatically. I feel that at least in part, this is what is happening to you. It is amazing what the brain can do to the body. If you can accept that this is probably what's happening to you, you may begin to feel a bit less desperate. My GP also tells me that 9 out of 10 people referred for cancer tests don't have cancer. Why should you not be one of the 9? :)

    I do know how every easy it is for others to say "you'll be fine" but unless you've been where you are now, it's impossible to understand just how awful it is. You aren't alone - you've done the right thing posting here & asking for a bit of support. If you can just keep busy doing normal stuff & focusing on those things the time until tomorrow will pass more quickly & there is EVERY chance that what you fear won't come to pass. It may very well be that there is some issue but one that is treatable & not life-threatening.

    Do try please to think about what I've said here & understand that not all is doom & gloom. I certainly hope that you get good news tomorrow. All the very best to you.

  • Hi 

    thanks so much for your reply, I am trying to keep busy and focus on the good stuff. At least this time tomorrow I should have some idea about what is going on. I would not wish this worry on anyone, life has been on hold but I’ve decided Malignant or not I will get through this and I’m going to continue to be positive. I will face it head on and deal with the results what ever they may be.

     

  • Hi grandmas,

    How did it go? Hope all is ok hun x 

  • Good stuff!!:) Fingers crossed for you. x