Waiting for colonoscopy and scared

Hello all,

I'm 36/female and have been having abdominal pain since February. It started on the left side and it's now on the right one too. I have gone from 66kg to 58kg and my bowel movements changed - more loose and more often. I also have back pain, left hip & groin pain and nerve like pain in my legs.

GP wasnt concerned but has done CBC, CRP and stool sample to check calprotectin level, all came back fine. I then had a CT scan which didn't show anything in the abdomen but revealed a 6mm nodule in my lung which will be re-scanned in 3 months time. I also had MRI of the spine and neck, the results were back pretty quickly but I'm awaiting an appointment to discuss them. I am now also awaiting colonoscopy.

In the meantime I was referred under 2 weeks to a breast clinic as found a lump in my breast. This came back clear fortunately. 

I know everyone has to wait and everyone gets stressed about tests and results but I am feeling very down at the moment.  I have two small children and sometimes I fell so unwell and struggle to look after them and enjoy my time with them. Every doctors appointment was a battle to get any tests done due to my age. So I'm also exhausted mentally.

I know the likelihood of having bowel cancer at my age is low and I was doing ok until that nodule was found on the lung. Now I don't only worry I might have bowel cancer but also that it has already spread. 

Any advice how to deal with this horrible wait and anxiety?

Thanks. 

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  • Hi all , waiting for colonoscopy , am on a dark tunnel, im so sad and emotional, I feel like im dying from this, I just cant see my kids and my husband in face, thinking whats going to happen , thinking im gona hurt them, I have a urgent referr and in the blood test i hade something high in the liver, I am so worried if that means that I may have colon cancer that has spread ti the liver , and thats why liver shows like that on blood test, 

    anyone know anything please let me know , after I came home yesterday from the doc , Plus the symptoms i had , I vomited twive , never before , I just bleeded once a month ago, ona day only, please help if u know anything ️

  • I know this was a while ago molla but just wondering how you got on? hope all is ok.

  • Hi Pinkystar 

    I had an email saying that someone asking me how I went on,  but i forget my pass and things , so I add 1 to my username just to get in , so I made "molla1" sorry just to explain, okay then , I went ahead with colonoscopy , I was almost going private as i was petrifiyed but Dr booked already so went and do it on NHS , it come all clear , nothing there , i didnt feel anything because I was put on drugs , I woke up to tell me that all clear , I was shoked , couldnt believe it , I had some preparation before that, I drink some thing to clead the colon, was okay, I was so soooo scared that now I have health anxiety , if anytbing hurt , i go into stupid conclusions , its unbelivable , if my finger hurt I vould think the worst , since the panic of colon c fear , Now I think sometimes why I let myself go to that state , I just used to search google all day non stop 

    thanks God all clear

     

  • I'm so pleased for you Molla, thank you for updating. It's so scary isn't it. All I do is google all day too which doesn't help I know.

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