How worried should I be? Confusing colposcopy

I apologise in advance for the huge post, I had a colposcopy today after borderline changes in smear, at my original pap test the nurse said my cervix looked 'nice and pink and healthy'. I did test positive for hpv  which was the reason for the colposcopy I thought. ... so today was the appointment, the nurse had a "look" and then suggested a biopsy but went to call in a doctor first to see what she thought, I was made to leave the room while the doctor was called which made me even more nervous, and then the biopsy which was Lletz biopsy caused an excessive amount of bleeding because the biopsy site was close to lots of blood vessels, the nurse kept saying to me " and are you sure you haven't had any symptoms?" Which has now made me even more terrified because if symptoms are only usually present in later stage cancers why is she asking me as if she's surprised that I'd not had loads of symptoms... anyway they left me saying they were sending off the biopsy and didn't want to guess anything before getting results of what it was and that ill have results in around 2 weeks! My brain is now running overtime, when doctors think something is fine they say things like" it seems to be a chest infection but we'll  send of this test just to be sure" . .. when they think it's serious they say "well I wouldn't like to guess at what it could be without the results" ... right? ... i am 28 years old and I'm now terrified for my children etc.. I can't see there being a good outcome at all, has anyone had similar events? Thank you

  • I can't comment on your symptoms but someone, I'm sure, will post with some useful ideas. What I can say is that waiting for results (I've been there) is horrible & your mind does work overtime. The chances are you are worrying unnecessarily so try to take a deep breath & look on the positive side. My GP said 9 out of 10 people who are referred for tests for cancer come back clear. Luckily I was one of them & you could well be too. Hard to wait I know but people on this site will help to support you whilst you wait so you aren't alone & we do know how you are feeling.

    I'll keep my fingers crossed that you are ok & that soon you will be in a happier place. Look after yourself in the meantime.

  • Thank you for your reply, this is my first post here but I've been scrolling the forums for a couple of weeks, I didn't really know where else to turn, my husbandd and family keep telling me iit still could be nothing but my brain is way past the stage where I feel like 'nothing' is even a viable option. :( 

  • Nothing is a viable option I promise. Hope today is a bit better - you're a day nearer to the results & that can only be a good thing. x

  • Hi Worriedmomma

    I’m sorry you find yourself in this position and are now so anxious. It’s completely understandable. It’s very normal for them not to want to guess at what something might be until the biopsy results are in. When I had my biopsy, my gynaecologist could obviously see there was something there, but all he said was that he would send the biopsy off for testing. He must have known at that point it was serious because he told me to come back in a week for my results. But he didn’t frighten me by giving me a guess at that point, and I’m glad about that.

    It’s impossible not to worry, I know that, but really it’s best to try not to think about it too much until you know more. If the biopsy were to show cancer, there are good treatment options, but remember that would be the worst case scenario. I have cervical cancer, but have been through all my treatment and had a clear scan a few months ago-no evidence of disease. 

    Please keep in touch, and if I can help with any of your questions I’m happy to do so because I do know exactly what this is like and how awful the waiting is. xx

     

  • Hi I'm a bit late, am just reading this now and wondered how you got on with your results? Hope everything turned out okay