My appointment is as an outpatient and with a specialist nurse! I thought I was seeing a consultant.  Today my nerves have be absolutely torn with worry, even went to my mums and had a cry.  Just cant seem to function at the min, i try to be positive but theres always that nagging voice in the back of my head saying this and that and what if! 

I just hope I get some good news so all this anxiety can go away..... hate feeling like this.