Hi, i find myself here after a smear test for the first time ever came back as ‘needs more investigation’ I was sent for a colposcopy and after a couple of cancellations managed to get there for it, I expected everything to be ok and to be told that there’s nothing to worry about, instead I laid there hearing the dr say there was ‘something’ at the top and bottom, he took two biopsy’s from both places and I  will apparently hear back within four weeks for the results. I keep thinking of afterwards the nurse seemed extra ‘kind’ and considerate and kept telling me of the details of the secretary to inform them of my change of address (I’m waiting for confirmation of moving this week!) I broke down and cried as my head was spinning and my ptsd kicked in. Once i pulled myself together and left I felt numb but knew these feelings was ‘normal’ for a woman that had been through what i had.

ive tried to keep my mind of it and managed to get into work but found I had difficulties keeping myself together and had to take some extra medication to get through the day. 

I’m really worried with them taking two samples and know from what I have read that biopsy’s aren’t always taken 

i don’t really know where i was going with this as my mind is spinning again as I know the next 3 weeks and 6 days are going to feel like a life time oh and I’ve had to check each submject matter just to find the correct section  as I couldn’t think where this should go!