Hi shanaz welcome to the forum, nearly everyone on the forum has been where you are now some pacients and some relatives we've all been there how your being is quite normal (we'll it is on here) hopefully someone will get back to you soon, if you want a good rant this is a good place to be. Best wishes. Billy,. 

thanks so much Billy for your reply. 

Its a worrying and scary time. I’m trying to be strong for him but it’s hard as I am the type of person who wants all the answers now! And my partner is just wanting the time to come to terms with everything in his own way. I have to respect the way he wants to deal with things I know ... it’s all so new to me, I have no idea even what the CT scan will show that the MRI didn’t, that’s how clueless I am about anything medical. 

Thank you once again for your  reply 

Hi shanaz i can understand how he feels feels from finding my C to starting treatment was over FOUR months its not curable i just live with it knowing one day its going to win, i lived with it nearly three years i have to keep going as long as i can, I've got a disabled wife who needs care 24 /7 i promised to look after her, sorry I'm feeling a bit morbid just now,. Billy 

Hi not your fault sorry i just get that way now and again i shouldn't have put that down sorry AGAIN.BILLY 

I've got to check my BP three times daily last time very low panic. Me a bit but is gone up now again sorry,.