I had a full hysterectomy  by choice, 4 years ago, after finding severe changes in smear tests and colposcopy. As I have high family history of cervical and breast cancer. Sinse then i was missed off the system for recalls for smears, and as a novice was thinking that I must not need smears sinse I've had a full hysterectomy and that must be why they never asked me to go back for tests. I was sent a reminder in January from my GP to go for smear as I was over 40 and was at risk! I ring, go for a smear, to be told by my nurse there, that I shouldn't be having standard smears, that I should be getting seen by a consultant at colposcopy and we discovered this revelation that for 4 years they had forgotten about me. I have sinse been for a colposcopy, last week and get a letter today saying I have to go in on Monday as unfortunately the test shown highly severe changes in moderate amounts! And well as medium grade changes. Obviously I'm scared stiff, mum of 4 youngest just 6 years old. The fact that this could have been prevented and picked up years ago, now I am imagining my children without me, and how they are going to cope if this is worse than I'm hoping. I am just so angry and scared. I have noone to Express things with, my other half is my chocolate fireguard when it comes to emotion and I have a freind who isnt interested unless it involves her. So I'm feeling very alone right now.