Wow... thats just a shocking story, not typical at all... but thank God you went?
Was it the lump in your armpit that made your arm feel odd? Was it a tumour?

Thankfully like you said, its been caught early... and yes, I think MANY people wouldve ignored those symptoms... who would think?

Sincerely grateful for you replying, and wishing you a very speedy recovery... hugs xx

I am so sorry you got bad news.  How are you feeling?  It's brilliant that the surgeon says it was caught early.  I hope you are building a rapport with the healthcare professionals who are looking after you and you feel you can trust them, and that you have lovely supportive people around you.

There is a huge fear in our society of breast cancer because so many people get it.  With my rational, doctor head on, it doesn't seem so scary.  Prognoses are so good now, if you look at the statistics rates of cure are incredibly high, and like all statistics, they are old, and things are improving all the time so are better now than they were when those statistics were collated.  But I am completely incapable of being rational about any of this at the moment, not for myself, only for others.

Stay in touch and let us know how you get on.

Georgina xx

Hi shoobeedo

How did you get on yesterday?  It was yesterday, wasn't it?  I am really hoping it went well for you.  I have been thinking about you, but I have stayed off here until tonight because I am trying really hard not to fall apart and only succeeding some of the time.

My appointment is on Friday and I am oscillating between being and feeling 'normal', then it hits me, the fear, and I have crumpled into hysterical tears a few times.  I forget about it, then I get that physical feeling of my breast being bigger, my arm rubbing against it in a way it didn't used to, and I am reminded and struck with terror.

I have had triple assessment twice before, of course I was worried but it was nothing like this horrible sense of foreboding.  We all worry more as we get older, I suppose it is because we have become more wary of life based on previous bad experiences, nasty shocks etc.  Before this, I was looking into getting some CBT to try to free myself from the disabling anxiety that something awful is going to happen again and I keep feeling like I'm about to get what I have been waiting for...

I'm so sorry about your separation.  Been there, done that and it's so tough.  Because divorce, marriage break-up, family separation are so commonplace, it seems normal and we think about it almost casually.  Then it happens to oneself and we realise what a horrible, painful tragedy it is.  I am very lucky that seven years down the line I have a really good relationship with my ex, but it was very difficult for the first couple of years.  He was angry and bitter, but that has dissipated in him, he has seen me go through terrible things since we separated and we are friends.  He supports me, and I support him.

I realise that nothing matters to me really except the people I love.  I find myself bargaining with a God I don't even believe in... I just want to see my children grow up and don't want to leave them without me, we are really close and I love them so much.

I was sad to read your message, that phrase you used, 'just within reach of a happy life' really struck a chord with me.  I feel similarly, keep thinking and hoping the run of bad luck will end and am terrified it won't...

Are you on Facebook?  If so, would you like to connect and talk somewhere less public?  Quite aside from this current ***, it sounds like we are in similar places, the staggering through bad experiences and the fear that there will be no respite.  Let me know if you would and I can tell you my FB surname xx

I went to gp as last week as breast felt bigger, uncimfy arm brushed past etc, felt lumpy/bumpy on one side. Gp examined and said would send me for a scan. The next day i had a call to book appointment which was for yesterday. I went alomg hoping to get a scan and results etc.... got there had examination and then told he would book me in for a scan. Said he could have scanned using the scanner in the room but will use the bigger better one thats downstairs.... im so confused as everybody says you should have scan at that appointment. He said it is visibly different and feels different but no 2 are the same.... which i understamd but  why then send off for a scan..... more waiting and anxiety 

I am so sorry I haven't replied yet, I have stayed off from here, purely as I have been in a black hole.

I would love to hook up, yes please, let me know!!! I'm on Facebook, so perhaps we could message?

Everything you said has also struck with me, 'bargaining in a God I don't believe in'... I must tell you, I am a doctor of acupuncture, so similar to you but from a different perspective. 

UPDATE: I had my appointment on Monday afternoon, cried all morning... I went to the appoinment, the consultant was very lovely, a bit like tweetie-pies granny mum! She was old, but obviously experienced, and very kind. However, she didn't palpate the area I needed looking at. I was briskly sent for mammogram...she said ultrasound would have a good look....
After the mammogram I told that I had to go back this Friday for Ultrasound/Biopsy. That they wouldnt be doing it all on one day as there was no radiographer.
That really upset me, as the thought of waiting even more was just untenable (I'm self employed so cant take time off).
Anyway, coming away upset and frustrated, I then had a message left on my phone yesterday, telling me that my ultrasound is cancelled?? My mammo came back clear (great news), so now I don't need the U/S?
They still havent addressed the lump in my armpit, yet have cancelled the U/S on the basis that the mammo was clear?

I don't understand. So I have called the hospital who are going to ask the doctor again for me. Fingers crossed. My armpit is still incomfortable, and swollen :-(

Lets hook up <3 
xxxx



 

Hi

I really think you should go back, just to put your mind at rest.

I don’t mean to frighten you but in my case one Dr couldn’t feel it, I had negative chest X-ray and Mammogram. 

I saw the lymph nodes on ultrasound which led to my biopsy which has led to my early diagnosis and hopefully a positive outcome.

best of luck

x

Omg :-( 
Yes, I am waiting for the secretary to call me... I hope they don't try and fob me off.

I cant believe your story... I will have to check up on what your symptoms were, as I cant rememeber... but sure you said somethig about armpit. So you didnt have cancer directly in your breast, but in the actual arm pit? Was deep in the armpit crease? Or more on the side towards the breast? Ugh.
That is SO scary... but thankfully caught early as you say... Have they staged you? I suppose not yet, if it hasnt been taken out?
I'm so sorry for your diagnosis, keep us updated xx 

I have just read what you said about your arm not sitting right. Thats how mine feels, like there is something in the way :-( 
If the hospital don't scan me, I will go back to doctors :-( I'm so upset that they havent done an ultrasound for me... Now I'm doubly worried, but thank you for speaking up xx

Sorry to be a nuisance, may I ask how large the lump was that you found in your arm pit? And where abouts in the armit... I'm freaking out :-( xx