Hi this is the first time I have ever put something on the internet. I have dyslexia so please bear with me. I have resently had a ct scan on my abdomen. It has taken a very long time to get to this stage. The consultant won't tell me her thoughts but my symptoms are telling me it's Pacriatic cancer. I am having seviar back and stomach pain. I am shattered all the time so sleeping a lot. My skin is very itchy my concentration is terrible. And I am having bad depression. My wife passed away 2016 and my daughter lives with her fiancé. I am being told all the time that I Am worrying about nothing by most people. I am feeling very isolated and lonely and very afraid. My wife was 48 when she passed with muscular dystopia. I may be next at 50. The waiting is so stressful. The doctors said they were very concerned about my pancreas.  Any advice would be helpful thanks