I'm 41 years old, no children and I discovered a lump approximately 2 inches above my left nipple on Sunday 12th May 2019 showering in a campsite shower whilst on holiday. Immediately I thought this is not good it was the size of several peas joined together and hard.  My Mum has had breast cancer and has been in remission for over a decade now.  I had two previous lumps 5 years ago but they are alot larger, very soft and just fatty lumps, I knew straight away as soon as I felt this that this was different.  I went back to our motorhome and told my fiance and he said don't worry about it, we'll get it looked at.  It took me 5 days to call the GP and ask for an appointment.

We get married in 67 days time (27th July 2019) and this is just the WRONG time! Walking to the doctors I could have easily turned around and burried my head in the sand, I don't want to walk down the aisle with breast cancer! Anyway saw the doctor on Friday 17th May 2019 and she gave me an appointment at the hospital - she felt my two previous fatty lumps and the new lump and agreed saying yes this is very different.   She gave me an appointment to see the breast clinic for 30th May 2019.  Yesterday I called the hospital and asked if they had any cancellations and they had; my appointment has been bought forward to Thursday of this week 23rd May 2019, but I'm absolutely pertified. My fiance is in the Royal Navy and two weeks after coming home from our honeymoon he's being deployed to the other side of the world for 6 months.

I'm struggling to think about little else and keep focused on my job.  I've read on the internet that 90% of lumps are harmless.  I also have a twin sister and when were in our twenties she had some breast cysts, so half me is hoping it is something innocent as a cyst, but on the otherside of the coin I look at my Mum and what she has been through.  Is there any advice you can give me? My doctor has said I will know one way or another on Thursday if it is any sinister?  I can't think about anything else and I'm struggling even eat anything! Is this normal?