I think my mum has cancer

My poor mum has a hard, large, smelly, and fastky growing internal lump in the centre of her sternum - it’s un moveable and painful for her. Doctors have given her antibiotics and told her to come back at the start of June as that bthe only appointments they have available (that is their version of ‘ASAP’). I am hoping it is some inflammation or cyst but I need to prepare myself for the worst. My Nan still has breast cancer since her diagnosis in 2017. I don’t know what I would do if mother and daughter both had cancer. They are both my world and I would try suicide over and over until I was taken away from this earth if I was to lose any of them. I don’t have much family, I only really class my brother, mum and nan as my immediate family. I could do with a cheer up, so to speak! My GCSES are coming up but I just can’t focus. Anything would be appreciated to distract or put a smile on my face, just temporarily. Thank You.

  • Welcome to the forum killerqueen123 although I'm sorry for the reason you've joined us.

    I can't begin to imagine how scary and stressful this must be for you at the moment killerqueen123 but try not to think too far ahead if you can. I know that is so much easier said than done but as you've said, it could be something other than cancer so trying to prepare yourself for something that may not come to pass may do more harm than good, despite your intentions. 

    As you've got a lot to contend with, it may be worth confiding in someone about this. If you don't feel like you can discuss this with your family or friends just yet then maybe you could try having a chat with one of your teachers so they are aware of what's going on. The Samaritans are also available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week on 116 123 if you need to talk to someone when no-one is around. They are there to listen and will do all they can to support you at this time.

    We will have everything crossed for good news at the beginning of June Killerqueen123.

    Kind regards, 

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

  • I am currently going through the same thing with my mum she has symptoms like your mum and she is the only family I have left and she not even 50.

    We are waiting for her appointment for the camera and CT scan to tell us what it is. 

    If you need to chat message me and please try not worry too much which I know is easier said than done 

    Gemma