So scared

Hi. I can't quite believe I'm posting on this forum today. Just arrived home from first breast screening and am sobbing. 

I am petrified of all things medical - have white coat syndrome - but nevertheless attended the screening, as it's so important.  

The mammogramist was initially fine but after completing the xrays she changed. When I asked did everything look ok, she said she was not able to say anything. I said when would I hear the results, she said within 3 weeks and this would say whether a recall was necessary. She then asked if I was going on holiday soon, which I am and then asked how long I'd be away for.

This has totally freaked me out as I can't see anywhere online that they'd normally ask this. I can only think she's seen something worrying on the x-rays and I need to be around for follow up appointment etc....

She coukd tell I was getting more and more anxious and at no point said not to worry.

I'm hoping I'm totally overacting but I can't think of any reason why she'd ask me about holiday dates unless there was a problem.... if results were fine there would be no reason to ask this.

Sorry to bother you all - I have been inspired to write this after seeing how much wonderful support is out there

  • Essex.lady, I've just read your post and I want you to know how amazing I think you are for going through with your appointment. It must have been really tough but as you've said, it's an important test, and I'm really glad you managed to muster up the courage to go.

    Quite a lot of ladies on the forum have had similar encounters and thoughts pop up during their breast clinic appointments so I'm sure some of them will stop by to offer their support and share their experiences with you soon, but in the meatime try not to read too much in to what happened if you. Much easier said than done but the more you over-analyse, the more stressed and worried you'll be which is what we don't want.

    I hope your results bring good news so you can head off on holiday worry free.

    Kind regards,

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator 

  • Thank you so much Steph.  It is very kind of you to take the time to post such a positive reply.

    I know I should get things into perspective and I'd absolutely give the same advice.  There's just something in my head that just won't go away and is totally consuming my every thought and second.  I honestly did not expect to feel like this. I truly hope my panic distorted my experience and will keep you updated on the outcome.

    Thank you again.

     

  • I think it's always worrying waiting for results and sometime the nurses/doctors not saying much doesn't help but they are probably doing it not to worry you as ironic as that is.

    Im going through a waiting game for my mum and every single thought is worrying and thinking what if. If you need to chat send me a message