Hello

im struggling trying to be the strong one for the family. Last Tuesday 30/4/19 I had a mammogram and scan for breast cancer. 3 cysts found, the radiographer pretty certain its benign, so as you can imagine I was over the moon. The next day I supported my 70 year old fit dad to hospital for his CT scan results. He’d had 2 chest infections one in January and again 6 weeks later. So they gave him a scan. He’s got COPD So the lungs are pretty much shot anyway and there is a shadow 3cm in size on one of his lungs. And his lymph nodes by the lungs/ trachea are swollen. The consultant was blunt and said its almost certain cancer. ( not the most subtle delivery) you could have knocked me off my chair with a feather. I know my dads scared but being jokey to soften the mood. Me, well its a rollercoaster as I’m being strong in front of him but cry on and off out of sight. He had a PETCT scan today 7/05/19 to ascertain where the cancer is ( consultants words) But he has no breathlessness, sputom of coughing up blood, no weakness ( he took down the old boy next doors dangerous porch at the weekend on his own, even putting up and taking down the scaffolfing, hardly the weakened ill person?)  Asking questions all I get is could be weeks could be months. My head is f****** up totally. I’m a broken women as my dad raised me on his own and he’s my hero. I’m praying the consultant is wrong and its an infected lymph that antibiotics can sort as he did say there was a v v v slim chance it could be resudue infection from the 2 chest infections from January and March this year. And that the shadow is scarring. And yes I’m aware I’m expecting a miracle from god. How do I stay strong for him and my children? 

Ty