I got my results tuesday, and flew into a fit of panic and iv bearly been able to eat anything i got my hospital letter for the colposcopy two days later gor the date 10th june

I am so scared i cant stop crying im 25 in july and i have two young children, and iv read so much reasuring things but i can not shake this fear 

I was wondering what results people have had after having the colposcopy im so scared i have something thats going to take me away from my kids

I did the stupidist thing and had a look on facebook for reasurig stories really and i found nothing good! I had convinced myself that the low grade was a good sign but im not sure if it is i dont k ow what to doi cant wait that long for an appointment and if i need a biopsy ill have to wait even longer and i cant take it i suffered with bad health anxiety after losing my nan and being in a mentally abusive relationship

I have only just started to feel amaizing and happy and looking forward to the future 

But since getting my letter iv totally reverted back i spent all day in my bed on the internet looking for reassurance iv read me letter 100 times

And now iv stressed so much i have a head cold, can anyone help me with this. Could this be serious could i be in trouble im beating myself into thinking high grade would be worse but i just dont know 

I keep making awful scenarios in my head that i shouldnt be thinking its awful!