Hello!
Im Rebecca and im 23 and for as long as I can remember I have been a hypochnodriac. It started after I first discovered what cancer was after a class mate in primary school had a brain tumour. However, in the past 2 years this has become so sever it completely consumes my life! I’m aware this is a cancer forum but the reason I’m posting this here is because the word cancer takes over my whole life and mental state on a daily basis.
For around 3 years now I have not felt right within myself. I’ve had god knows how many on and off symptoms I’ve lost track. I’m constantly under the impression I have cancer and it takes over my whole life.
New symptoms seem to appear all of the time and whenever I wake up in the morning I dread that I’m going to feel sick, not feel right, have pains or aches or something in ny body will have changed! And pretty much everyday this happens. Whenever I notice a physical change that’s when I start to panic and google and research things. This comes in spells where I’ll feel under the weather for a while then start to feel okay and my mind will rest, then all of sudden it’s back.
in recent weeks I haven’t been feeling well. A couple of lymph nodes keep flaring up (the ones beneath my ears) and I keep feeling sick and dizzy at various times throughout the day and have a general feeling of been unwell. This is made incredibly worse by overthinking and been paranoid about what it could be. It feels as though I have some kind of recurrent infection that comes frequently as these symptoms have persisted on and off for over a year.
ive had a full blood count which raised no concern and which did in fact put my mind at ease for a while, but it doesn’t last as symptoms return.
i suffer with GERD which I was told was caused by my chronic anxiety so take lanzapeozple tablets daily. I also have a frequent bout of infections in my right ear which I use a spray for as and when and I think this has returned.
For some reason I feel as though my body is against me and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m now worrying that My symptoms are pointing to leukaemia and it’s droving me crazy.
Could any one offer some words words of reassurance?
