Not really sure why I'm here but I guess it's the same reason as everyone else and that's fear... 

I had to visit my GP in February as I had light spotting 2 months in a row in between periods. Not blood, more of a pinkish discharge. But, as I've been treated for CIN cells in the last, I knew I shouldn't leave it unchecked. 

The doctor did swabs, but noticed I also had what she called a bulbous cervix and possible ectropian which I've also had before so wasn't surprised. She referred me for bloods and a scan. 

The swabs came back as normal for dodgy cells but showed I had bacterial vaginosis and so I was prescribed antibiotics. The bloods showed my white blood cell count to be up slightly but they felt this was due to the BV and I was also D3 deficient. Since the antibiotics I have had no more spotting at all. 

I had to wait for the scan but when there the sonographer kept questioning if I could be pregnant. I knew I absolutely wasn't pregnant as I've not had sex in quite some time since my relationship broke down. She then asked to do a vaginal scan as she had spotted what looked like an ectopic pregnancy. 

On speaking to my GP, he was vile really and just casually said I have a 7cm mass on my right ovary which could be a fibroid, could be a cyst or could be cancer. He said the positive was that there was no blood flow to the mass. I then asked him to double check my blood results and again he was quite horrid in telling me bloods don't mean a great deal if they don't know what they're looking for.... At this point I had visions of my fist going through the phone because he clearly had no clue how he was coming across! 

He said he would refer me to the hospital on a two week wait. Today I have received a one line letter from the surgery, telling me I've been referred and that's it. The paper attached is all bold letters warning me I could have cancer and warnings of not missing an appointment. The leaflet is horrible especially when received with such a blunt letter. 

My appointment is next Tuesday so that's a week and a half I would have waited.

Over the last few weeks I've started to really notice that I have dull pain in my thighs, sometimes in my back. I'm tired all the time and suffering constipation. As I mentioned, I've no bleeding. And every now and then I feel a sharp twinge on my right side, more so when I get up in the morning and then it's gone. 

So then I went and did the worst thing possible and visited Google. But I am genuinely now worried that I do in fact have cancer.

I'm not aware of any history of it in my family and only 36 so would hope those things are on my side but I don't always have the best luck in the world and feel physically sick with worry. 

My son is only 9 years old and he is my biggest concern of all.